Susan Glenn

Hi. I've been having suicidal thoughts over a year now, but it's been severe since I started university. I'm unhappy here; I have no friends and hardly anyone to talk to. My Uni is six hours away from home, so I tend to go home a lot because I miss interactions with family and friends.

Anyway, I'm hoping the depression will cease when I go home, because it hurts my significant other and I. I have dark thoughts that I'll be unhappy, even when I move back with him. My mom is a bit of a yeller, so I'll probably try to move out soon.

Anyways. I've been thinking about killing myself a lot frequently. I'm going to move home in about three weeks, but if these thoughs continue, I'll probably see a therapist. I've just been lagging on it because my last therapist was awful and I feel like I'm just being a moppy 20 year old.

I feel I am overly pesimistic. I am happiest with my friends, boyfriend, and family back home, but at the same time, I always just think about going back to school, and it makes me enjoy their time less.

My mom has clinical anxiety and depression. I have clinical anxiety but I feel like I only get depressed in certain situations. I have been thinking about the future a lot lately too, and I always think about how I'd kill myself if things didn't work out my way.

Thoughts? Questions?

I'm gonna' major in computer gaming science, but my friend is telling me that without a good amount of experience I'm going to have trouble and I should just go with my second plan of neuroscience and psychology. I have some programming experience but not a lot. My dream careers have to do with programming and computer science so I really want to do this.

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The ring on the molar fell off my braces, but I wear retainers, I don't have braces. Is it a big deal? Should I call my orthodontist? I wear metal retainers on my lower jaw, but I have plastic backups.

I've been with my boyfriend for a handful of months. He's my first boyfriend, but he is very good to me. My step mom says that she's never had what we've had and she's been married; but maybe it's because we're still borderline honey moon phase.

He's pretty much my dream boyfriend, not in looks but so much in personality. We share common interests, beliefs, and morals. He comforts me and spends time with me when needed. He's understanding, and considerate.

We never argue really, we always try to come to an agreement. We find no interest in holding grudges really.

The only one that truly believes in us is my step mom. Everyone else says we're too young to understand love, but all I know is he treats me right and he's like my best friend. I feel like he's the one. We may not last forever, but I want to last a long time with him. My mom says it's puppy love and it'll pass, but I think she's just being protective because she's had some really asshole boyfriends my age. (My dad, my brother's dad)

I'm graduating this year in high school, and he's currently attending college. We're young, but not that young. On the edge of being adults.

I'd like to hear some other opinions. Thanks.

I don't know what's wrong with me. It started either late last night or early this morning. One side of my gums under my tongue was swollen but it went down because I put ice on it, and now I think my salivary duct in the back of my mouth is swollen and I can force up mucus.

I'm a virgin, in the mouth, at least. I barely had my first kiss like a few days ago, lol.

Uhm. I have sore throats every now and then but this one is bugging me, so. I gargled warm salt water and sprayed some sore throat spray in the back of my throat. I've also been drinking a lot of water. How can I make this go away over night? I'm going to see my boyfriend tomorrow and I don't want him to catch anything.

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He goes to my school but we've been texting more lately than actually talking, so I get flustered around him.

He's going to pick me up tomorrow to hang out, I'm tense about it because I've never had a boyfriend before. How to loosen up and just be myself?

So I was having anxiety trying to poop just now. I don't think I pooped yesterday but I did the day before. I just finished forcing one after sitting on the toilet for 20 minutes praying to God and pushing as if I was concieving a child. I just went next door to buy some cranberry juice but there was none so I got a snapple. Now I'm chugging down water and eating grapes, anything else that could help? I also live next to two liquor stores so I can grab anything else that may be available.

Sometimes when cars pass by I get paranoid that they're going to roll down the window and shoot me, or try to kidnap me when I'm walking home or just walking somewhere. Is this normal? It happens often.

There are guys that tell me the like to work to see a girl.

I went out smoking for the second time for my friends birthday with a few other of my friends and their friends and we smoked out of an apple and I needed help lighting it up and they said i wasnt inhaling it right and now I feel embarassed and i cant help but over think it.

I don't have to right? I'm going to the mall without online shopping.

I'm doing an essay based off banned books, and I chose "Crank" by Ellen Hopkins. Anyone know where specifically it was banned, whether it was at their school or anywhere else?

Theres this guy. I think I like him and I want to like him, but I dont get nervous around him and I dont obsess about him like I do other boys, but I like to be around him and I can see myself with him. Do I like him? I'm so confused because this isn't really normal for me but i want to be with him.

So my friend and I were walking to class passing period and he wanted to talk the long way, so I went with him. He was going through another classroom, taking up our time but our class wasnt too far so I waited. Then the warning bell rang so we began walking again but he was blocking my way and pushing me. I told him to stop because we were going to be late and he when he finally did the bell rang and the teacher shut the door on us. The teacher then came back out and told us to ho to detention and i could tell my friend felt bad but i ignored him the whole time. I left him to go to another classroom and he went to detention by himself. Am I wrong for being mad? Is it mostly my fault?