afraid I'll never move on/ have a relationship after being raped?

You seem stuck in a mental self-torture loop. You're in control of this cycle but you have to first recognize that it's yours to stop. You're allowing the lack of control during the rape to continue.

Seize the reigns. You are captain of your ship.

Be true to yourself and follow your gut if something doesn't seem right in a situation and you feel uncomfortable just walk away. I have been emotionally hurt too and it doesn't compare with the struggle you had to go through but it hurt me a lot a couple of years I got I was in class and I met this girl and she seemed really nice next day I catch my boyfriend and her feeling each other up behind the bathrooms. So I understand the whole trust thing but get to know the guy really well and i mean really well and if he says he cares about you then he will understand that you as a person who has had some difficultly in life need to have more time I hope this helps! Best of luck

The majority of people go the way of all the earth. For some it is impossible as there are defects from injury or birth that makes a person different . Just have to stick it out for now till you learn what and why the majority is doing in life. Looking for others who are similar is difficult because the numbers are small for this matter.

1) Be strong and move on! Forget the past, because that will haunting you.

2) Find a very good person. True love is exist. If you have found your love, everything can be solved. He will understand and protect you.

3) Believe in God and read the bible. (This helped me a lot!)

4) Stress don't make any good for us. Stress is only bring us down. Love yourself, you are special. Please know that!

5) Do what you like and keep busy. Don't let yourself idle eventually, you will forget your problems.

If you keep like this, you will only bring harm to yourself. Your parents love you since you were born, you have no idea how happy there are when you were born. Don't let them down and love yourself. Merry Christmas!

I think you can try to drown yourself with video game and try to snap out of it.

There's lots sluts who would love gang banged by many men everyday if they can.

There are 1 million korean prostitute forced by debt and traffickers.

Million of people starve to death because they cannot migrate to help you keep your standard of living, so cherish, enjoy and realize how lucky you are compare to lots people.