Am I scaring people around me? I am dealing or at least trying to deal with taking care of...?

i'm so sorry about your mom hun ....... you're a compassionate and courageous person you know.... and clearly highly intellectual too ..... when people tell me they have issues expressing themselves with clarity in social situations i immediately think first and foremost that they are highly intelligent and are simply trying to verbalise everything on their mind at the same time ....... a kind of stuttering bought about by trying to say too many things at once ...... try measuring your words by stopping and reflecting on what you want to say before speaking ..... people will wait for 10 or 15 seconds.... and many times you'll find that you actually can't bebothered expressing that thought after the 15 or so seconds elapse anyway ..... step back in your minds eye and observe the panic that your mind is creating for you and just pay attention to it ....... don't judge it or analyse it just pay attention thus disentangling yourself from the drama the human mind cancreate for so many of us..... try also not to react automatically to situations and people ....... stop and think for 15 seconds before you respond or react ....... and clarity will come ....... freedom to express yourself clearly.

like shining a light in the darkness....... darkness cannot exist where there is light.

xo

(((huggs)))

I don't think you are scaring them in the fear department, I think since you are dealing with such heavy stuff that they just feel inadequate and are scared that they could not deal. The internet is wonderful, so are books and journaling to express yourself.

http://www.interpals.net/

this is a good, safe site. try it out it's free (really, no hidden costs)