I just need someone to talk to...?

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I feel very depressed and keep having thoughts of suicide that sicken me, but there's so many things I have to deal with. I'm just gonna give my life as it is now and if you have the patience to read through it and respond then thank you so much. 

So I'm 15, and I live with a stepdad as well as my mom and sister. My stepdad became my stepdad when my real dad cheated on my mom and ran off to another city with another woman. At first, my stepdad was okay...but beginning when i was about 13 he got abusive. He's knocked me dizzy before, constantly makes fun of me, and tries his hardest to lower my self esteem, such as forcing me to get a medium when I'm a small. and telling me that A's and B's will get me nowhere. My mom lets him do this, and I ended up depressed. My best friends at the time were no help, as they ditched me to "follow Christ". So a year later, I'm alone and friendless with extreme trust issues. I cut myself with scissors, knives...I ended up attempting suicide. But then, I met my current boyfriend of one year, who has helped me so much, stopped my cutting, and temporarily stopped my depression. Lately, though, I've been feeling depressed again because my mom believes my stepdad is cheating on her, and I am all she has to talk to so I know everything and it is killing me. She asked me to make a decision about whether we should move to an apartment or not, and I'm not sure. I love my stepdad financially, but that's about it. My dad who lives in another city is about to get a divorce from his current wife, who has a son, and may move to Italy. My parents hate each other and I constantly pulled into the middle. My mom has also given me phentermine in the past to help me lose weight, when I am not that overweight. It's like, everyone comes to me with their problems, but I have no one. My boyfriend and I seem on the edge of a breakup too, because with all my stress I'm blowing up on him. 

So if you read all that, thanks for listening, please post your story or advice.

? · Accepted Answer

Poor sweetie, I'm so sorry that you have to go through all this. It's just way too much drama for you to handle at such a young age. First, you expalin to your mom that right now...you are going through hell and that you need a mom more than ever. Explain to her that you can't be her support system through her own relationship problems. That is not your responsibility. You do not have the tools to be able to help her with that. Tell her you just REALLY NEED YOUR MOM!! 

Also, suicide is NEVER the answer. It's too final and once you've done it...there's no turning back. You would be closing the door to a possibly great future. You will one day meet a great guy, have a good job, get married, have beautiful kids that you will love for the rest of your life, you might one day live in a nice house and have great friends that you have so much fun with...etc...you would be closing the door to all of that. I know that right now things seem very dark and hopeless but it won't be like that forever.

You do have to start by talking to someone that is qualified to help you. Like a school counselor, teacher, call a teen help-line maybe...there are some very valuable and helpfull resources out there that are specifically for young people like yourself going through similar problems. They are serious problems and you do need help to handle them. The good thing is...there IS help out there. Find it and help heal yourself and your life. Don't be scared to talk about it. And your mom really needs to wake up and be aware of what's going on with you.

Good luck sweetie and let us know how it goes. Keep your chin up. Life is worth living you know. One day, you'll look back on all this and think "Wow, that was a pretty bad time in my life...thank God it's over now."

Good luck ;)

shawn b · Answer

i'm going thour the same thing just a little bit differnt. and the only reason i can think of ur step dad making u buy a meduim is because he's scare that ur gonna be attractive to boys so he calls u names and self to make u feel bad abt urself so u won't like urself because he's scare ur gonna have a boyfriend. u should never let him put u down like that, ur 15 u should be out having fun with friends, not living depressed. when u turn 16 u should look into getting ur drivers lise. and getting a job so ur not home around that a hole. and things could be alot wrost.

salzberg · Answer

exciting. each so often people are ventriloquists. we are waiting to do some thing that seems incredibly eye-catching, yet we will additionally understand how those people do it. Angels and demons have extra skill than people, yet is it so wonderful that they are able to additionally do what people can do? i think of that the subject isn't that sensible beings can act as ventriloquists, yet that those particular sensible beings exist. In Genesis a million:a million, it says that interior the commencing up God created the heaven and the earth. If we can settle for this actuality, that a being who we don't see with our eyes yet can go with through his works is the source of all life, then it is not perplexing to end that there are different beings which would be unable to be seen, yet that have powers that people have, and extra. all of us understand that serpents or snakes don't have vocal cords, or this form of ideas to type phrases. however the scriptures can clarify the serpent who spoke in Genesis financial disaster 3, real right here: (Revelation 12:.9) So down the super dragon became hurled, the unique serpent, the only called devil and devil, who's deceptive the finished inhabited earth; he became hurled right down to the earth, and his angels have been hurled down with him. This "unique serpent" is somebody that we could properly known approximately from the commencing up, so for that reason the account in Genesis shows who he's although no longer promptly. he's an enemy and a liar, slandering approximately God through promptly contradicting him - " You certainly won't die." Even now, people have faith that as quickly as they die they do no longer likely die, yet are nonetheless alive in some type. If we learn God's be conscious, we can understand a thank you to guard ourselves from this liar and enemy. .

ANGEL FROM ABOVE · Answer

when my daughter was 10 her dad and I divorced and she was very depressed and she tried to cut herself 5 times and finally she decided to tell me what was going on I took her to a counselor and she seemed to feel better, so I thought.  She decided to go stay with her grandmother because she was always around negative thinking people and it rubbed off on her. At least at her grandmothers home, she made new friends and around her always happy grandmother, and she eventually started writing in a diary her everyday thoughts. That way she got to get her thoughts off her shoulder but did not always have someone putting her down or negative thoughts in her mind. After 1 year of living with her grandmother she has since become a straight A student and join sports teams at school and has a lot of friends. She is always happy now.  Please call the 800 number for suicide and never think you are not a worthy person, because you are. You are better than your step dad. Please talk to your school counselor it is confidential and they will refer you to the appropriate people to see.

Geewizz94 · Answer

I understand that you have trust issues but have you tried to talk to your school counselor? If you cant talk to your parents because they dont get along, you can always talk to your counselor, they can help and if not they can guide you in the right direction for you to seek help. And i'm sure if you ask they wont inform your parents unless they feel you are about to do bodily harm to yourself in the near future. Bottom line you need to talk to someone and get strong in your mind do not allow people to influence you in bad ways. 
Good Luck!

Frankie · Answer

i feel so bad for you :( unfortunutely i don't have any advice for you because i haven't attempted to cut myself nor i haven't had thoughts of suicide but eventually those problems will slip away very soon. hopefully your damn step dad will decide to move away and you'll be with friends and family,

Alx · Answer

You are a strong beautiful woman. You get through this. I have faith in you. Please do not hurt yourself, it will be alright eventually. Have faith. 

Check out this site: www.givesmehope.com

Take care.

God Bless.

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