is this situation tht bad...?

k i was datin this one guy for like 4 1/2 months and he had always had a lot of flaws and he didnt always treat me so great but when he did he was so..... sweet and loving... then i started txtin my best friends cuzin and he turned out to be so awesome and had liked me for abt a year then we were on the phone one nite and he told me he was in love wit me... and i had started to but not fully love him a little bit. then we ended up having phone s e x and then i really felt like i was in love after a little longer... so then he asked me to be his gf and i said yeah... but i had to break up wit my other bf... and the one i cheated with is so so so so so sweet and tells me im beautiful and amazing and im perfect pretty much everyday... and my ex gave me a second chance and i picked the other one... so is tht really tht bad?