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I cry alot. Not in front of people, havent done that in years, but when I'm alone I cry on an almost weekly basis. The reason is that i am a pretty depressed person and by the end of the day when i have no reason to keep composure i let go. Sometimes i get watery eyes when someone mentions something that hits a nerve or i get frustrated in a specific way but i don't cry. I'm a guy (or at least wish i was) and i know crying isn't exactly looked upon as a sign of strength. Its only the last two years I've been doing this crying thing when i get depressed and i used to not cry at all except that i was much more depressed then. Self-hatred is just kind of overwhelming at the moment, I've been in a sobfest for the past hour.

So, am i an emotional weakling because i cry alot?

So I'm starting to feel depressed right now and are wondering if i should talk to my friends about it. I used to do it a lot but after having people snap at me for being too negative ive learned to hide my suffering and try to keep it a secret when I'm feeling down and/or suicidal. It seems to me that whenever someone is depressed and wants to complain its very annoying and can get old fast. I've hated people simply because they ***** too much and always seem set on wining the oppression olympics. I also feel so guilty after i talk to people since its really a dumb idea to let someone get that much dirt on me. So YA, should I ***** about my problems or keep them bottled up?

My friends and I say ***** alot of the time, not directed at black people though. Its like saying dude, we greet each other like "yo wassup niggaaa" though never inthe presence of actual african americans because they could be offended. I'll only say it infront of a black person if i know theyre okay with it. Like i won't say fag if my friends are offended by it, though most of us aren't and use the term lovingly. So does using the word ***** in a non-racist way still make me racist?

I want to get jacked, bulky big muscles. Problem is I'm biologically female. I know itll be harder to build up without testosterone but is it still possible to get bulked up? Can I still build large muscles without taking testosterone? If that is possible, what exercises/equipment will I need? Don't tell me something like "oh but jacked girls r ugly" or "be happy as u are" because i don't want to be a girl and are not going to be happy with myself until i get stronger.

I like to write, mostly fiction. But I haven't been able to finish anything. So I decided to write a short fairytale. The plot is a little like this:

The kings daughter is tempted into the woods by the familiar of two dark sorcerers. This familiar directs her to a path that leads to the hunting grounds of a malevolent wandering demon. This is their plot to kill her. But the plan is sent awry when the girl offers food to the demon, befriending it. This incurs a sort of, "curse" upon the girl. A wreath of thorns is curled over her wrist, her hair turns black, and eyes orange. She runs back to the castle but is cast out an almost killed after they recognise her curse. She flees into the woods and is guided by the demon, now bound to her, to the cottage of a witch. She is raised here as an assistent to the witch until she reaches her say twenties or late teens when the king orders an inquisition to kill those who are considered "evil". She then comes upon the sight of her surrogate witch-mother being burned at the stake and swears vengence. Her quest is a rudimentry, "the king is bad so i must kill him" not very original. Anyway the creatures of darkness find her as a sort of pioneer in their quest for equality and she is known as "child of the thorns" because of the thorns on her wrist. She kills the king who turns out to be her dad and the last line she says to him is somthing like "you may be my father, but you were never my king."

So, is it too basic or uncreative?

I've had many different dealers, some nice, some horrible, but theres very few where I go "wow you're a cool person" and actually want to form a non-drug dependent friendship. Does this happen to many people? Is this common?

Ever since I was a kid I've loved rain. Clouds, snow, sleet, hail, any kind of covering or precipitation would automatically make it a good day. Its so much easier to get up in the morning without the loud beams of irritating light saying "rise and shine ************" To me a sunny day with no clouds is bad weather, stretches of long sun make me depressed. Its not the heat that bothers me, I hate sunny days even more in the winter. Its just the light and that depressingly empty blue abyss. The sun is an annoyance when not covered by clouds. Anyone know why I am like this? Why do sunny days make me depressed and rainy ones improve my mood? Is this something like seasonal affective disorder?

Okay, embarrassing little secret here, I like my body hair. When it gets about a centimetre on my legs in the summer it feels great, more masculine. But I unfortunately have light blond body hair that doesn't get very long on my arms and is very thin. Shaving is bullshit and won't help me, I'm afraid of using rogain because of side affects. I want it to be thicker, maybe longer, darker, and more noticeable naturally. I don't want to have it be fake, like dyed or covered in something to make it darker. I think it would be a good way to help me pass, and I hate the feminine appearance of my arms and legs. Please don't try and urge me to reconsider, you are not helping in anyway and I will report trolls.

Now, i know depressed people can be extremely annoying. I get depressed alot. What I used to do is I'd text someone and pour on the self pity until I'd feel better. But I was starting to wonder if my constant "wahh I'm thinking about suicide again" was just irritating. I personnaly get annoyed when people try to talk to me depressed, I only make it worse which makes me a huge hypocrite. Instead I now just cry alone in my room and think about suicide and the future. Not that I'll actually being attempting it again in the next few days, but things change. I just don't tell people about my problems anymore since they probably think its for attention or annoying or both. I want to cry and complain about how my life will be a faliure and I won't make it to my 30th birthday but everyone else in the world has it so much worse than I do so I feel guilty and continue being depressed. I don't know, should I talk to people? Its good to vent but it probably annoys the **** out of them. Would it be better to suffer in silence to spare the ears of others?

I am 16 and have wanted to try BDSM for a while. My friends tease me that I can't be into it because I tell them to stop when something hurts.(I am submissive) Anyway I have been wanting to experiment for about half a year and now I also wanna prove those ******* wrong. What sort of things do you suggest using to tie me up? What sort of activities would be safe for someone new to BDSM? Would choking not be a good idea given my inexperience?

Okay so I met this girl on wednesday and we immediatly started dating that night. Now I'm not really good with relationships for starters, especially with strangers. She's nice enough and cute but I can't help but think she bugs me at times and we've been dating for four days.

So heres the problem, I go over my friends house and she tells me this cute girl cheats on people. Then she says her hot friend who I'd met months ago wants to talk to me. Hot girl is wayyyy more attractive than cute girl, but I don't want to hurt cute girl. Cheating is out of the question, I don't do that stuff. But now I can't decide what to do because hot girl is flirting with me, and she doesn't know I have a gf. I want to get with hot girl, but I don't want to cheat or hurt cute girl but I also don't want to stay with the cute girl and lose my chance with the hot one. I'm thinking of suggesting that the cute girl and I maybe were taking things too fast and I wanna be friends first or vice versa with the other girl. Help? What do I do I have not had a relationship in over a year and have no Idea how this works I am 16 btw.

When right-wing extremists claim homosexuality and transgenders will "bring the end of society" and make us "morally corrupt" why do you think that? What makes someone think "oh gay marrige is legal? Must be the rapture everyone get your picket signs." I just want to know what makes you think that, besides the bible since religion belongs nowhere near government and if you wanna debate that take it up with our founding fathers. So why will gays end the world conservatives, any other reason except and incorrect and fallible religious document?

I know I'm trans ftm, but I'm wondering is the cons outweigh the pros. Being trans is costly, dangerous, and It won't fix everything. I have two choices: be a miserable lesbian who hates her body and female pronouns and just deal with being suicidal or transition never talk to my parents again and be a lonely transman with no chance at a partner but at least some internal peace. Either way I hate myself forever, and I don't know which is the lesser evil. Its a hard decision, I need some advice.

I'm transgender ftm, and I live in a very transphobic house. My mom is a self professed TERF and my dad just thinks we're ****** in the head. He said he will not have one ever living under this roof. I hate having to fake trash talk transgenders just to keep off suspicion. I want to disconnect all contact and never talk to them again when i graduate highschool, but I don't know. I love them, they love me, but only as their daughter. They've never hit me or restricted me but they'll never except who I want to be. If i do end up never talking to them again I don't know if it should be before or after college because i want to start transitioning but i don't know if its possible to hide the affects from them for that long. I don't want to disconnect, they've only been good to me and I'll absolutely break their hearts but when I think of all the crying suicidal nights I've had just because of something they said I know I can't deal with it any longer than i have to. I need advice, this decision haunts me. Should I cut them off after school, wait till college is over, or not do it at all?

I took a double dose of my uti medication because i missed one but i just read thats a bad sign and now theres some sorta brownish stuff in my urine. This is terrifying me, please tell me if i need to see my doctor and what does this symptom mean?

Okay so last tuesday i was prescribed a sulfate anti biotic for my urinary tract infection. Since then my appetite has dropped. I can only eat very small amounts of food without feeling sick even though I am aware i am still hungry. Is this normal for antibiotics or is there something else going on?

I know precum can get you pregnant, I have been told this many times. But if we fooled around for a while with him in me what are the chances i can get pregnant? I want odds not "precum can get you pregnant". We did foreplay and he was hard for a while. He didnt ejaculate though. But I just want to know what my chances are and if i do get pregnant what options do i have to kill the thing before my parents know?

I have had a lot of trouble trying to make an account on actual trans websites, so I'm asking this here. How can i lose the fat around my hips and thighs? I can't do anything about my chest since i am still young, but its really the curves that bother me. I'm in the upper average range for my weight (145 at 5'4") so I don't know how well overall weightloss would work or whether it would actually exacerbate my problem. I'm not that interested in trying to hide them, i want them gone. If theres anyway to reduce the fat on my thighs, hips, and love handles I want to know.

I'm 16, smoke pot, addicted to caffene, don't eat that well, and hate being short. I am currently 5'4" and am a female-bodied individual. Will I grow more? If I illicitly use human growth hormone will it actually make me taller? Is there anything at all i can do to get taller or am i stuck at this height forever?