Maria

I am a 19 year old girl in college who is very loving/caring thinking of others. My ex-fiance is 23 yrs old, attends same college, dental assistant, and is the nicest, caring, most lovable person. He has had an rough childhood/life where he took care of the household since he was 15, dad left, mom is materialistic/irrational, 5 grown brothers between ages 18-25 who work and cannot manage money spending it on ridiculous things. Basically everyone acts like kids. Me and my ex met when we entered college. We had a blast. His family was always in the way having him solve their issues and dates would be spent in the car giving all 5 of them rides. We were not happy, one day I told him that his family would always be there but let them go theyre adults, focus on yourself, education and happiness. He focused on everything but their problems and we were happy. He proposed on Christmas moved in and it was great. He changed for the better distancing himself from the negativity but when he got a car using my dads credit it changed. He started visiting them and letting them butt in and the relationship began going downhill. A lot went on and basically he broke up because he was stressed out because of everything. I took the car because his brothers would take it and the insurance didnt cover them so it would have made my dad get into problems. He thought it was revenge but he saw it as betrayal he tries to think logically because he doesn't know how to interpret love/hope due to trauma.

Ok so I got a solo for marching band but my part is hard I have to walk gracefully and slowly thru the whole band as I play a slow mysterious solo but I can't really keep time very well much less play while I'm walking maybe if I was marching I could do better but I have to just walk can someone PLEASE!!!! help me my director expects us to know what to do and I want to make me and my band proud:( I already got made fun off for not being able to do it today. help.

So this is my first year of marching band and I don't want to look dumb trying to find my coordinates from my drill chart since I have a solo and I am all alone right in the middle. Please HELP!