Desi

I had made taken Nyquil and was drinking trying to fall asleep, I didn't fall asleep until he left around 4am for ROTC training (PT) when he came back I didn't notice but I woke up with him (I don't really want to write the details) doing things...pants gone and such. I was so drowsy but I tried to move him, I tried to say no but I was going in and out of conscience. When he was done he asked in a tone so aggressive if "I wanted more" I just closed my eyes and woke up and asked to be taken home. He was my boyfriend and it felt horrible, I felt horrible is it still rape? I'm no longer with him and he hit me at some point among other things so I broke up with him. But I recently have a new boyfriend and I am afraid of what could happen although he's sweet, he's also in the army to be exact in Iraq. Should I even tell him about it or would he blame me? I'm not sure what to do, I can't get past it.