lilady

Seriously,what do you talk about? What happen when you run out of topics? Don't you feel bored or awkward when there's nothing to say?

Gosh, I'm dead curious to know!

How many times you usually do it? Why?

I do it all the time. 3-5 times after submitting. I never satisfied with my grammar or how I express my answer...

I need to ride the bus to work everyday. The journey usually take more than an hour. I usually have to stayback for work so when I ride back home, it's already past sundown. And at these hour, most of other passengers are creepy foreign construction worker. In my country, crime rate by these people are very high, so naturally, I feel uncomfortable having conversation with them.

Recently, these foreigners start to talk to me. I usually give a one-word answer and pretend I'm busy with phone or my work or pretend sleeping. But they keep bugging me if I don't answer their questions. At some point, they start hinted sexual issue. I am afraid to snap on them because there were various cases that these foreign labours ganged up against any girl that became rude to them.

How to deal with these creeps without making them angry? I'm scared...

I am curious because yesterday, I saw this girl wearing short sleeve shirt. She accidentally pulled up her sleeves, showing the scars on her upper arm. I know they were self-cut because I was a cutter myself. They were all in the same direction, collective about the same area, but with different depth. Some scars look deep and wide.

I can imagine how depressing she was to make such deep cuts. I can't help but pitying her. She must have had a troubled time back then but she kept it to herself. I know the feeling. I can only pray she is no more depressed...

What would you think if you see someone like her?

I'm ugly.

No, I'm not fishing for attention by saying this. My body is okay. But my face is not. My mum used to be hot and it seems like she can't take it that her only daughter is ugly. She never said it out loud, but the way she ask me to never leave house without makeup, always push me to dress prettier when we need to go out together, always say how pretty my friends are in front of me.

I thought I can live with that. My mom can be ridiculous. But eventually I realize, pretty people get better treatment. Ugly people got ignored. I'm friendly and outgoing. But when I go out with my friends, it's obvious how my friends got better treatment by strangers or the shopkeepers. They are not the drop-dead gorgeous, but it seems like my ugliness is what make them stand out.

It's so depressing. How do ugly people cope with this defect? It's killing me inside....

Like in the movie, when they are hiking and got trapped in the blizzard. When they finally get a shelter, they will refrain themselves from sleeping. Why? Would you die if you fall asleep?

So, recent research found that pessimists live longer. They say optimists tend to take risk that cost lifespan. But at least they live their life. Being pessimist is so depressing, no?

So which will you choose?

Let's say you like your job and you got paid decent. But you just got scouted for a higher paid job but the job would be demanding. Which one will you choose?

I got my molar extracted 2 weeks ago (friday, nov 9). The bleeding didn't fully stop after 5 days and my gum got swollen, so the doctor prescribed me with antibiotics.

There's no swelling anymore now but the gum bulges on the side (looks like swelling but no redness and pain, just feel super uncomfortable). And then I realize there's a deep hole on my gum where my tooth used to be, and when I touch the hole with cotton bud, there's a mixture of yellowish substance and blood.

What happened to my gum?