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We have been together for more than 4 years. During all this time[almost] we had a really strong relationship, almost zero fights, we used to have fun with the simplest things... But almost a year ago he started to be busier for work, also he moved to the same place as me [ I live in a duplex with my parents] so he lives upstairs with some friends. Living like this made me think that we will be closer than ever. And it started well, but after a while we didn't have sex as often as we did, we ended up doing the same thing every weekend, nothing that exiting, he says that sex is a key point to all this. A couple months ago, his father was laid off, and he works at the same company. He started to obsses about this, like he thought that he could be laid off to and what was he going to do, that he need to start moving on and work. That by his 30's he felt that he had done anything and he wouldn't want to be like that by his 40's. Then he started to acting weird with me, like I had to ask him for a kiss, or I had to touch his hand. Once in the mall i tried to hold his hand and he moved it away. With his father thing he finally spilled it. He said that he need his time for himself that he didn't feel the same way...

We have been arguing about it because, even though I admit that I might not be acting in a mature way and I'm probably annoying him more asking why this, or that?...

Now there are more things involved: We share the same gym account, the same cellphone bill and my car is under his name. All this because in our heads once existed the idea of living together and even getting married. I need a new car and he insists that he should put his name on it, since I don't have a good credit yet and that will be helpfull and stuff like that.

The thing is that i kind of granted his time by stop calling him , I only wait for his calls, but since he lives upstairs, he comes down and say hi, or lets me know he is leaving. We still go out to dinner on weekends. It is really awkward, but at times he acts normally: He stears at me, attempts to hug me or hold my hand, jokes around, or makes silly voices...

Last week, he took his best friend to the airport at Chicago, he was out for two days, so I didn't get to see him at all. He called me when he left and called me to say he was back in town.

On saturday he said that he actually missed me. Later, when we were done eating, he told me he need a hug from me since he was at Chicago.

On Sunday we went out again and we went back to the argument. He said he was curious to talk to other girls and feel single again, do whatever he wanted to do and stuff like that. Then I asked him why he kept going out with me and he said that because he likes to go out with me, he likes my company and the we get along pretty well...

So then, what is going on? I want to think that he would make up his mind and I would stand a chance because I really love him...